| | Helloooo wow it's been so long since I last blogged. Anyway I've decided not to be a loser and quit the sport I've been playing for 4 plus years and continue :) I'm so glad I have managed to find my passion for Netball again, and today's Cross Country has motivated me to be a fitter and better runner!
Seriously I did not give it my best shot at all, but then again when Joce and I did the Plyomatrix thing at the SALT gym yesterday our thighs just totally died + boob muscles omg, damn painful.
I feel less of a loser nowadays because I actually go running voluntarily now :) I must must must train harder and play better and stop being so full of excuses!!! I hate myself now, I used to be one strongheaded thing then now I just give up so easily.
Anyway I think I haven't really been myself at all in JC, like something's holding me back, hahaha like I can hardly smile/feel retarded I don't know why, life in SC was so much more at ease and stuff. I feel sad but I know things will get better. And cuz I don't smile I appear like I'm super bu shuang but I'm not, so if you see me not smiling please don't take it the wrong way!!! Thanks haha I'm feeling rather insecure nowadays because my facial expressions totally do not convey what I am actually feeling. SO I SHALL SMILE MORE HAHAHA, so Nat Ng will stop being soooo attracted by my supposed "scariness".
Workload wise, haha can die la I hardly study la my life is just try to stay awake, netball, eat, and more netball. We're playing Marlins tmr omg!!! Totally going to die but I am going to try my best, Netball Super League players sia, I used to aspire to be like them, but now I think I CMI hahahha.
PAPA's coming back on Friday I seriously cannot wait! Now then I realise what it's like to not have a father around, because I don't think I ever treasured him enough when he was still working in Singapore and I feel so pathetic for not doing so. I miss him so much :(
There's a Chem test tomorrow so I shall go practise some questions! Til next time when I advertise for my council group! :)
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